Holding On to Letting Go

This morning's church service was an experience in depression. I don't want to sound lacking in empathy. I know it's a terrible thing to say, but it's the truth. I keep wishing there was something I could do to make everyone there understand that this is only a time of transition and we can still be happy in looking forward. But there is a spirit of depression that sometimes hangs over people, or groups, for years sometimes. It saps them of life and vitality and they fail to thrive...they merely exist for the sake of existing. It may be an evil spirit, it may only be a habit of humanity, I don't know. I fight it often nowadays because of serious health issues casting shadows over my parents and much of my family. And yet, I come to the Lord expecting good things because I know He loves me and my family, and His ways are not my ways. I can honestly say that I trust Him.

Transition is the word of the moment. There seems to be less than usual that I really can count on right now. I've been hoping my church will "snap out of it". I've been hoping for a miracle of God's Holy Spirit to just take hold and to see it come to life! Idon'tthinkit'sgoingtohappen. People are losing their jobs all around, and I am supposed to learn sometime this spring if my job of 26 years is going to be transitioned to another state over the next year or so. Other things...

I want to hold on to what I know and where I feel comfortable. I don't want to suffer loss, or hardship. But I know nothing is beyond God. I tried to put that into words this morning as I looked around at all the sad, worried faces. Sometimes we have to try to understand that God works best when we reach a place where all we have to count on is Him. It's then that God is able to take hold of us and really do something amazing in our lives for Him. Suffering/hardship is only for a time, and then God will give us a season of joy. We need to keep looking forward, even when the future can look like a fearsome place.

We need to just put our trust in God, and let go. To see me, you will often see a sad or worried face. But despite the sadness of the moment, I know that God will see me through this season of sadness and, even, through it, bring about a season of joy. I am reminding myself daily to just put my trust in God, and let go.