Minor Inconveniences

Toni called me Monday afternoon. She was taking Paige to the urgent care clinic. Sure enough, pink eye again. Daycare, so many kids with moms who have to make the decision to take their kids, even though they shouldn't. Germs, viruses, they get passed around. But times are tough, it takes two incomes and sometimes the moms are doing it alone. Bosses aren't very understanding sometimes when your child is sick, so you take them to daycare and hope for the best. Toni couldn't take Paige to daycare with pinkeye. She needed to work, I couldn't take another day off. Luckily, Toni has a good friend who came to stay with Paige. Germs, viruses, they get passed around. It's hard.

I've been suffering this week, and I mean SUFFERING, with an ailment that I don't care to discuss. But it has been a dreadful week. It's not contagious, so I go to work and bear it.

Things that at one time in my life would have been cause to give me great agitation, now are just bumps in the road. God does grow us and strengthen us. I would never have believed my family could get through the trials we're living now with my mom's illness and Dad's heart problems...caring for Grandma. I don't carry the burden, but the worry...the grief...the sadness... God has prepared us for this time, as He is now preparing us for even more to come. My prayer is no longer that the burden will lessen, I will get what I want. I have learned a new prayer. It is one of total surrender and trust in a Father who will never give me more than I can bear. A Father who longs for children who will say "yes, whatever You want is what I want".

My goal, my desire is not to talk God into doing what I ask, but to hear Him speak that I may do what He asks of me. In that, I will have everything I want or need. I haven't reached that yet. I long to know my Father's voice, but I know that will come when He has me ready.

Praise God.